Monday, July 28, 2008

Would You Please Pray for Me?

Girls, I am sitting in my office this afternoon on the verge of tears. I wish I could pin point something in particular that is wrong, but I cannot. All I can say is that I woke up this morning with a horrible cloud of darkness around me. I really don't even know how to describe it. I am exhausted and horribly sad. My heart is pounding and I am finding it difficult to breathe normally. I kind of feel like there is a heavy weight on my chest, preventing me from getting air. Kind of like someone is holding me under water and I cannot get out from underneath it. And, this entire time, everything I hate about myself is running through my head like one of those running news streams .

I am sorry; I don't mean to scare you or bring you down with me. I don't know what this is, or what brought it on, but I want it GONE. I have been sitting here, reciting verses in my head. In particular, I have been saying these verses from 2 Corinthians over and over again:

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all‑surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:7-9.

If you happen to read this, would you please pray for me. I am so sorry about being a downer, but I really felt I should tell y'all how I feel. Maybe getting it out in the open will help it go away. I love praying for each of you, and I thank you for praying for me.


Kelly said...

Just said a pray for you at my desk!
We all have dark days - there is always sunshine around the corner. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I think you need a vacation. :-)
Praying for you friend.

Heather said...

I am praying for you right now. Father- Grip Heather tightly with the power of your love, grace, and mercy....and I bind the enemy from any thoughts in her mind or feelings in her spirit that are not of you. Bombard her with your Word and relieve this pain on every level. We know you can do it, and we ask you to do it in Jesus' name!

I am so, so sorry and please do not feel like you are bringing us down. You are such a huge encourager to so many and we count it a blessing to lift you up.
I love you!

SnappyCasualGifts said...

said a little prayer for you. Keep us posted.

petrii said...

Oh Heather, I'm so sorry ~~ I am just now getting this, but I did pray!! Know that I will be continuing to pray for you, these kind of attacks can be absolutely draining on our systems. I'll pray for strength my sister!!

I love you,

Lianna Knight said... are in my prayers. Keep reciting those verses and God will put you at ease. Know that you have so many people praying for your peace.

Kristen said...

Praying for you right now! I hate those days when feelings can't be explained. Reciting God's word is the best cure for me!
Never hesitate to ask for prayer...that's what I'm here for!
Hope you were able to get some much needed clarity tonight!
Tomorrow's a brand new day!

Julia said...

Girl! I am praying for you right now! You are so sweet to send me that birthday card, it teared me up a little bit :) I hope your day begins to look up.

Heidi Zawisza said...

I am just now reading this....I hope things have gotten better!! You are such a sweet sweet girl who obviously has a BIG heart. Let us know that you are okay!

Megan L Hutchings said...

We have all been there sweet Heather! Remember that peace and a feeling of ease will come soon ;). I am praying for you!

p.s. I agree with need a vacation!

Julie said...

I completely understand you. I have been there before time and time again. Stay in the word. It is so soothing to the wounded. I don't know how private you can get but it helps me to get on my knees and just talk out loud to God telling HIM how I feel. May the dark cloud be lifted from you today. You are a beautiful creation made by our glorious and loving Heavenly Father!!

Leigh Ann said...

I'm just now reading this, Heather, and I just prayed. I hope you are feeling better. Boy, have I had days like that. I'm sure tomorrow will look a lot better. Hugs!

Meredith said...

Heather-sweetie I am praying right now that you will totally feel God's presence all around you and that God will bring people to you to help you too.

Caroline said...

oh heather...i hope your day got better. I hate days like you had today...when we are not sure what it is that makes us feel that way. Praying for you right now. Hoping you are asleep and awake refeshed for wed.